"With the possible exception of the equator, everything begins somewhere."

I have been meaning to write for a while but have found myself sidetracked into the busyness of life. My mind is completely saturated with thoughts of the coming months but for the first time in a while, I am excited for the complete unknown and the complete release of that unknown into the hands of Someone who is equipped to handle it.

I faced an interesting and intense personal trial this past weekend. Please forgive my non-disclosure but trust me on the statement that it changed me...or at the very least changed my trajectory mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I reached a place I was unfamiliar with and psychologically was challenged to face my true and deep darkness, the harsh and sin-ridden parts of my heart that hide away only to convince me they don't exist.

It's difficult to face reaching the ends of myself and truly being reminded of just how finite I am.

But rather than woe in my humanness and wish for monumental (and fictional) super powers, I have faced up to my serious need for Grace.

And as C.S. Lewis so eloquently stated that everything begins somewhere, I can only admit that I am merely the humble beginning of a work in progress.

Ok.

Down on my knees down on my face
You just say it's ok
So many days I've thrown away
You just say it's ok
I don't think I could ever repay
Your perfect grace, but it's ok

It's ok, It's ok
It's ok, It's ok
You've become my embrace
Just tell me it's ok

Your precious words intoxicate
A heart that aches; it's ok
You don't recall my past mistakes
You just say it's ok
The human mind can't calculate
Your perfect grace, but it's ok

Even though you've seen a thousand times
I've let you down
You're always there if I should call your name
You're unashamed, unashamed